Saturday, November 27, 2010

Political nonsense.

Hello my peeps! It's been awhile since my last post. I was too busy getting settled back in Uni. The second semester of this hell hole of a programme we call Asasi Sains has begun.
Back to my post.....

Now, if i ask you who is your favourite PM, most of you would reply Dr. Mahathir. Why? Because he put Malaysia on the map, because he managed to modernise the country, because he built the Petronas Twin Tower, because,because...the list goes on and on. Most of you would say he was a great man.Even outside of Malaysia, Mahathir was considered a great leader. A maverick. A man who made Malaysia famous. For once, it was good to hear people know where Malaysia is. It was good that we don't have to mention that Malaysia is next to Singapore.

When Tun Abdullah finally came to power succeeding Mahathir's 22-year long tenure, we were happy. It was a good change. Well, that was just a small happy period for Abdullah. Soon most of us lashed out at him. He's weak, he sleeps all the time, He listens to his son-in-law more than his own advisors .To top it all, he lost his wife to cancer too. Being the first Malaysian PM(correct me if i'm wrong) to lose a wife while in office.What do you expect Abdullah to do? Build another skyscraper just to prove that he is just as great as Mahathir? Come on people, he was in power for less than 2 years and people started complaining and criticising his administration.Mahathir conveniently came out of retirement to lead a crusade against Mahathir. All the while, Abdullah remain silent(Not one of your best decisions).

Perhaps Tun Abdullah's biggest mistake was allowing media transparency too early during his time in power. Malaysians lived under a tight media censorship rule for 22years under Mahathir. All the skeletons in Mahathir's closet( or should i say closets) were hidden pretty well for more than two decades. Allegation of corruption and wrong doings were often voiced out by brave souls but they were never proven. Why? Because Mahathir was a smart man. He knew how to hide his vices. So when Abdullah allowed media transparency, all the skeletons were for everyone to see. All the shit that happened during Mahatir's tenure were revealed. Unfortunately,people thought it was Abdullah's dirty laundry. Tun Abdullah also inherited all the problems that Mahathir cleverly left behind. The result, Abdullah's administration was seen as far more corrupted and weak than his predecessor's. People within UMNO decided he was incompetent and even publicly asked for his resignation.Though i fear this is more out of political ambition than a desire to see UMNO be restored to glory.

Most people say, owh I don't think Mahathir practiced corruption. COME ON PEOPLE! This is politics we're talking about. A man with no ambition cannot survive in politics. Ambitions require support. Support requires money. At the end of the day, no matter how clean you try to be, you are still 6 inches deep in corruption. As a friend of mine once said "Politics,poly meaning many,ticks are bloodsuckers. Politics means many bloodsuckers". It is true. Do not think for once that Mahathir is clean. He was never clean. If he accused Abdullah of allowing his son to dabble in politics to control him, is he forgetting about his own son? Mukhriz may not have controlled his father but he sure did get a lot of benefits from being the PM's son don't you think? Mukhriz even wrote a letter asking(albeit politely) for Abdullah to resign.

Do you honestly think that a man can stay in power for two decades and stay clean? It sounds impossible. Abdullah is said to have a house in Australia.Corruption? Sure. Well what about the rumour that Mahathir has a ranch in Argentina? Rumour or not, it proves that Mahathir is NOT corruption-free. Far from it. If that is not some indication that Mahathir practiced corruption, i do not know what is. He may criticise Abdullah for all of his weaknesses, but dear Tun Mahathir, do not declare that you are clean and without flaws. He may be a great man. He may be one of the greatest Prime Minister in Malaysian history. But he is not a saint. I really do pity Tun Abdullah. He was a scapegoat for Tun Mahathir and his erm ....minions. I shall not name them. You know who they are. I am not defending Tun Abdullah. I am not saying he is clean either. As previously mentioned, honest men in politics are rare. I just want to make sure that people do not forget what Tun Mahathir did. Do not let his achievements blind you of his wrong doings. Do not think that what he did for Malaysia is great enough for him to be forgiven for his mistakes. He may be hailed as a hero now, but someday, people are really going to see the real Mahathir.

Author's note: Please do not take it personally. I'm only 18. Still a student. I hope to enter politics one day. Perhaps even become PM. Having an ISA record is not a good way to start my political campaign or my medical career for that matter. So please, please i beg of you do not take it personally. Tun Mahathir, if you are reading this( just dream) please don't report me to the police.Any criticism will be most welcomed.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

the universe

I was watching History Channel's 'The Universe' yesterday about the Milky Way galaxy. As we all know, our solar system is just a minute spot at the edge of the Milky Way. To us humans, the solar system is so vast yet we are just a speck in the galaxy. If that does make you feel insignificant, the Milky Way is just one galaxy out of the 170 BILLION GALAXIES in the observable universe. When they say observable, does that mean there are many more galaxies in the "UNSEEN' universe? I guess i'll never know.

The mysteries of the universe is something that has fascinated me for many years. The universe is defined as the totality of everything that exists,including all physical matter and energy, the planets, stars, galaxies, and the contents of intergalactic space. From what I know, the universe expands faster that the speed of light. For those who didn't know that, YES THE UNIVERSE EXPANDS. IT STILL IS! So if the universe continuously expands, where does it expand into? Put it this way, if a balloon is pumped while inside a container, it will expand in size. This is because there are spaces between the walls of the container and the balloon. Once the balloon touches the walls, the balloon will explode if more air is pumped. So if the universe is expanding, what is the space onto which the universe expands?The space that i'm talking about is not the "OUTER SPACE" where shuttles fly to but "SPACE",a three-dimensional framework in which we can sense direction and quantify distances between objects or points (Courtesy of Wiki). According to Wikipdia, the expansion for the universe is intrinsic, meaning that the universe is not expanding outwardly into a pre-existing space. It does expand into anything outside of itself. Confused? So am I.Based on the finite theory, space(the mathematical concept)wraps around itself. If we were to hypothetically walk across the universe, we would actually end up back in the place where we started.

So, we all know that the background of the universe is black. So if the rapidly expanding universe is black, does that mean the pre-existing space( suppose there is a pre-existing space) is colourless? According to scientists, the universe will continuously expand until it rips itself apart. I used to think( I still do) that the universe will continue to expand until it reaches the edge/boundary of the erm..."space" and when it does reach the end,there will be a sign hung onto the boundary of space that says "DEAD END". haahhahhhahaha

In the end, we do not know whether space extends to infinity or there is a boundary somewhere out there. I guess it's something that only GOD knows.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010


"What the hell am i doing here?". That is the question that i ask myself every single day. What am i doing in UiTM? Why am i doing foundation here? Why do i want to pursue medicine? Lately, i find myself doubting my ambitions in life. I know i am smart. Not as intelligent as some but smart nonetheless. However, seeing the top scorers acing every single quiz,test and exams makes me wonder whether i am smart enough to pursue a medical degree. A doctor once told me, "Anyone can be a doctor, you just need patience, passion and hard work." True as it may be, i still wonder if i am qualified enough to study medicine. Being a doctor is the one constant thing in my life.Sure i had other ambitions like becoming and astronaut, an astronomer, even a power ranger at one point but being a doctor was always my biggest dream. Unfortunately, being a doctor is the ambition of thousand of other Malaysians. Its the 'it' thing to do nowadays. I mean almost everyone in the science stream wants to become a doctor. Out of the hundreds of SPM high scorers, you can bet there will be twenty or thirty students wanting to become doctors.

The number of doctors doing their housemanship has increased so rapidly that even the officers in charge are unable to control and keep track f them. Some doctors even finish their housemanship without even gaining any experience or learning anything. Are these the doctors that you want to be roaming around treating patients? Instead of curing patients, they will just leave a trail of dead bodies. It was predicted that Malaysia will experience a 'saturation of doctors' soon. If there are so many doctors in Malaysia, why is there still a lack of doctors in government hospitals and clinics? Where did all the young,ambitious doctors go? Sadly, the idea of long hours working in government hospitals does not appeal to them. Instead, they flee to the comforts of the private sector or open up their own clinic. I must say, i am seeing clinics popping up everywhere like mushrooms! In a small town, there could be five to six clinics. I once plucked the courage to ask a doctor why did he open up his own clinic instead of working in a government hospital, his reply was simple "The working hours are not flexible and the pay is so low." I understand that money is important but that is just ridiculous. Do you become a doctor to make tons of money or do you do it to help people? Since when did medicine become a glamorous profession instead of the noble one it was before? Is the title of DOCTOR in front of your name more important than helping people? Unfortunately, GLORY is far more important and satisfying.

Could I be one of these people? Do i really want to become a doctor to help people or because the glory that i think i would achieve? My biggest fear is that i would not be the good doctor that i hope to be.For all i know, i might end up being those cold, unfriendly doctors who show no warmth towards their patients. They view their patients like objects and nothing more. The 7 week break has given me time to reevaluate my goals and priorities. Fortunately, i still believe that i can make a difference in the medical field. It may be small, but still, a difference. I may not be the smartest person, but what i lack in intelligence i shall make up in passion and determination.

Lately, i saw the setbacks that i faced this year as a sign from God. Could it be that i am not meant to be a doctor? That i would end up in a different field all together? That i have been to arrogant and proud to think that i could become a doctor? I must admit, i did consider dropping the idea of pursuing medicine. However, seeing friends in medical school motivated me to stop thinking negatively and moping around and start working harder.Walls are made for you to climb over it, not to stop you. With this renewed fire burning within me, i find myself determined as ever to become a doctor. Hopefully, i will.